Postponed, or modified
It’s hard to describe exactly what the decision outcomes were when I posted last, but it was just about the future of Office Spouse and I in general. Generally not good. Being with him either makes me happy or very angry/sad. The ratio was inacceptable. However, I’ll be the first to acknowledge that this has more to do with me and my feelings and less to do with anything to do with him in general. The ratio may well be worse with every other man (or woman!) on the planet. But it was hard knowing I was being angry/sad at such a nice well meaning guy.
I don’t know what is more abusive…putting him through my misplaced mood swings or what I’m doing now. I told him I didn’t think we should talk for a few days. Or at least over the weekend. I need to figure stuff out, or at least reset.
-M
