December 2009
13 posts
year of dating is almost ovah
begin year of being a girlfriend. (with Appleton)
recap, thoughts, and wtf happened to be typed up later. including how I broke it off with GG. siiiiigh.
BUT HAPPY NEW YEAR!
the drinking starts…now.
-M
petty buildup
So GG and I are still seeing each other also…but I’m slowly getting fed up with him. Not for any particular big thing, but a lot of little things. They’re things I can get over, but individually they’re all pretty petty and so it’s almost hard to bring it up without sounding ridiculous. For example:
talking about how he’s gonna spend his bonus and flying...
La Danse
datingeveryone:
I’ve been thinking about a lot of stuff besides my relationship with the All-American for the past week or so (imagine that, me not being overly, stalkerishly focused on my present relationship), and I had a great time with family and old friends at home. The All-American and I did have a really nice conversation on Christmas.
And we’ve got plans to see each other tonight, which...
milestones
So it turns out that I think only remember leaving a toothbrush at at most, two guys’ places. I feel like it’s a milestone I hold sacred, even though we all benefit from me being able to brush my teeth. I guess I have a toothbrush at work and obviously also one at home so usually I can get to one before tragedy strikes. (And I use their toothbrush sometimes…with their full...
the good kind or the bad kind?
M: i'm watching avatar tonight against my will
TNJB: seeing it sat
M: i'll tell you how much i hated it
M: in 3d?
M: i'm just gonna get a headache and fall asleep i tihnk
TNJB: so it'll be like sex?
current conundrum
How much scheming do I do to be around the right person at New Years? And who is this right person? Perhaps I should flee all of my known frequented cities for New Years and avoid the situation entirely.
-M
fake bf knows best
My fake bf and I reconnect. He’s met GG and he asked me to send him a pic of Appleton.
V: you shouldn’t pick [Appleton]
me: haha why?
V: you’ll get your heart broken
me: aww why?
V: i can tell
V: plus, you don’t look good with him either
V: the other one matches you better
Does that seal the deal? Maybe. Hilarious.
-M
gaming, my downfall
Appleton’s begun apologizing. He’s got all the baseline elements of “I’m an idiot” and “I don’t know where to even begin apologizing” etc. Must…hold…ground. (We know I won’t. I’m hopeless.)
I kept myself signed off from gchat as much as possible, didn’t e-mail him, didn’t text him…
But he managed to get...
play fighting and war games
(one drunk day…)
M: a guy asked me out to dinner this week but i decided to be all honest about it and said i couldn’t handle things at this very moment ‘cuz of “complications” M: but i told him i would be interested otherwise but i didn’t want to lead him on M: unfortunately M: i am now officially leading him on, huh M: i make poor decisions TNJB: yup TNJB:...
one more layer of mystery
OkCupid has this new-ish thing called Icebreakers. They pick out someone who matches decently with you, and tells you one thing about them (like “he likes Amusement Parks!”) and you can message him. No pic, no profile.
Now, with the introduction of Omegle (anonymous chat) and some other site I can’t seem to remember the name of that my friends have used where you are basically...
btw
I’m on boy hiatus. (Boys of the Appleton/GG sort.) Possibly in my attempt to take a break from all bad influences in my life: alcohol, boys, mcdonalds…Except I could never quit drinking and McDonald’s is just a way of life in my neighborhood with no other food options after a long day after 10pm if I have no leftovers so really I’m just taking a break from boy drama...
also, wtf boys
It’s two of you guys now. Ronaldo and GG. Do not joke about marriage.
Not at either points of your respective relationships with me.
Some talk of the future might be jokingly appropriate. Okay, actually not really. In fact I don’t know how I managed to have a conversation with Appleton about how we’d have kids that somehow had his recessive blonde curly haired genes and...
like clockwork
Was trying to tell GG it wasn’t going to work out and this needs to end completely instead of going into various periods of in between, but he has once again declared that things can be different and that he’ll change and treat me like he should have been treating me all along. Do I fall for it again? This was a more convincing promise than the usual one I get every 2 months or so. ...